My Life This Week

i've finished my last paper for the semester!! and hopefully i'll do okay and be able to graduate next semester. the results won't come out until mid-july so i'll not even think about them until they're actually out. =P

so, what am i up to this winter?

i'm definitely going to attend Tong, NCG and With Love Down Under: Charity Gig. but that's not until week after next.

so let's talk about the near future. like tonight! tonight is the premier of transformers 2 and i'm watching that with sammy. it was suppposed to be a surprise but some people just can't stop asking questions. kantoi!

maybe walk around in the city on thursday. and so come shopping? have to budget coz if i don't i might use up all the money for my trip, which is not gonna be good. friday, we're going to macquarie and walk around. i hope it doesn't rain. we'll definitely stop by at zulaikha's for her house party and then go to the city for dinner and christine's after exams party. there's another one on saturday too. two days in a row! crazy crazy. but i like it. =P

i did plan to join some friends for a trip to newcastle this weekend but might have to pass if they change the dates. that's okay though. maybe i'll go for a picnic on sunday with mr katak instead.

so i've got plans. and i've got plans. i love contingency plans. plan a and plan b, and plan c just to be safe. haha.

It's my life

It's now or never

I ain't gonna live forever

I just wanna live while I'm alive

-Bon Jovi-

Distance

i haven't talked to my bestfriend for such a long time. and when we finally talked after nearly 2 months, we have so many updates, it feels like a strobelight in a nightclub. have to see her as soon as i get home so we can talk about stuff over breakfast, coffee, brunch, lunch, tea, dinner and supper sessions. you have a confirmed date with me at least once every fortnight, miss apane! =P

distance do drive people apart. eventhough we try our hardest to fight it. how do you fight distance when you chose to be far from each other? you either stay close or you don't. you try keeping the relationship alive by texting and calling each other, sending emails and postcards. anything and everything. and hope that when you see each other again you'll be able to pick up where you left off.

but distance makes the heart grow fonder too. when you're away from someone for some time, you realise that with them around, life is much more interesting. without, it just feels a little empty. so when you see them again, you appreciate them more. you'd cherish every moment you spend with them.

distance. i don't mind physical distance. it's the emotional distance i can't take.

"Here the nights are crimson, the color of my heart.
Closer to oblivion, light years apart.
I'm much too far from where you are.
Life on a distant star."
-Vaneesa Daou-

Which Song Sould I Sing?

i have approximately 5 days to study for my last paper. after deducting time for basic activities like sleeping and eating, and procrastination and entertainment, i should have 3 days. should be enough. just have to study 3 weeks worth of material in a day and i'll be fine. we'll see.

still deciding what song to sing for tong. here's a shortlist:-

• my favorite song - skyler stonestreet
• kantoi - zee avi
• i will follow you into the dark - death cab for cutie
• accidentally in love - counting crows
• single girls - laura jansen

these are of course, just suggestions. i'll have to try and find ukulele chords coz erin's playing that instead of a guitar. i think it's gonna make all the songs sound really cute. =P we'll probably do three songs. should be enough. kan erin?

"I'm looking for a song to sing
Looking for a friend to borrow
I'm looking for my radio
So I might find a heart to follow"
-Hanson-

Panic! At The Disco

so i have 4 papers - today tomorrow and the day after. and one more next week. them i'm done! insyaallah. i'm kinda scared, more than i want to acknowledge or admit. but the first step is accepting the fact, right?

my first exam for my final semester is in 2 hours and 20 minutes.

am i ready? nope. not at all.

and what am i doing? updating my blog.

but my head hurts. have you ever done a hand stand (against the wall of course)? do you know how it feels when the blood rushes down to your head? that's how i'm feeling now. it's like all the information wants to fit inside my head and there's not enough space. can't tell them to leave coz if they do then how am i supposed to answer the exam questions? tough decision. more information vs less pain. they seem to have a positive correlation - as more information is absorbed, more pain is felt. no pain no gain? i certainly hope so.

here's to everyone who's going through panic! at the disco - ALL THE BEST!

"Yes you can

You can do anything if you try, just try

Yes you can but you have to believe

And rely on what you have inside

You can make it through your trials,

For your trials will just make you strong

You can do anything, yes you can"

-Donnie McClurkin-

Of Night

i saw shining stars in the darkness of night,
slowly it turns into brilliant light,
one wondrous sight replaced by another,
from black and white to multicolour.

i heard nothing in the quiet of night,
then the hustle and bustle becomes my guide,
each sound like notes in a music symphony,
i lose myself to the rhythm and melody.

i smell dewdrops on the edge of night,
blends of perfume and spices as time takes flight,
from early morning to noon til late,
i feel alive with each breath that i take.

It's In Here

in my head
assignments done!
exams in a week
stuvac is gonna be crazy

in my heart
lala-land is so fun
i want to be lost
ooopss, i did it again

in my soul
where do i go?
still finding a passion
somewhere in between

Happy Birthday To Me

this year i had the best birthday ever! thank you everyone!

those two sentences have been up on facebook and msn since sunday but i just thought i'd put it here as well. indirect spamming? maybe. LOL.

my birthday weekend was awesome!

the surprise at mamak night really caught me off guard. well, to tell you the truth, i did think about it. but i didn't think it would actually happen. and the cupcakes were really cute!

the cheesecake at 12 and the video were super cool. i fell asleep while the girls were chatting but your company was super!

the birthday dinner was great too. i think 40 people turned up. and i am so greatful you guys were there. really made my day. =) dessert at max brenner was the first time this year. i love chocolate!

the sunday was a pretty relaxing. thank you mr katak for hanging out with me. =P