Spring Rolling at the Beach

due to all the emotional turmoil i was going through, and of course the evergreen excuse of being just plain lazy, i totally forgot to write an entry on the UMNO bbq held at Coogee on Saturday, September 23, 2006. so, here goes. i, being on of the committee members was supposed to be there at 9.30 am, but of course, being the person that i am, i actually arrived at nearly 11 o'clock. wow, talk about being late! anyways, it was a good thing, there were only a few people there, so it wasn't so bad. feeling guilty, i helped out at the bbq pit straight away. i loved it except when the hot oil seemed to jump at my hands.





Members of the blue and green team! =P Beach Futsal!!





Someone's been buried, but i can't remember who the victim was. haha.

after having something to eat, i headed to the beach and joined the rest of the gang. i didn't feel like going into the water so i just hung out at the beach, which was nice as well although i think i should have gone in. hehe. nevermind, i can go there next time, or maybe to another beach! =)

by the end of the day, everyone was already tired, but we had a performance by the Sengkool Duo - Yaya and Rahman! i wish i had a picture of them but i dont. haha.. but yaya has a few in her blog! =)

then, we had ice cream at gelatissimo!! although my favourite ice cream shop is still gelatomassi which is newtown! hehe.

so yeah. that marked the end of the UMNO bbq, which was great fun! congrats to all committee members who made it a success and thanks to everyone who came. for those who missed it, don't worry, there are more to come! hehe.. =)

Giving up?

i can't believe how something which started out as sounding so right could be so wrong. it was just typical of life to let me learn - again! - that i can't always get everything i want in life. not that i didn't know that fact before, but it's been a long time since i felt really disappointed about something. haha. not a big matter - actually its quite trivial, but being the emotional person i am (my friends say my moods are like an economics graph - it fluctuates a lot), it has been the center of my thoughts and a lot of times, the main topic of my speech. hehe. i even cried over it. well, it's ok. this is me. i sometimes cry over silly stuff, and sometimes i do it while laughing. hmmm... i sound a bit crazy right now. but yeah, that's what i do. hehe. i've already given up in solving the matter at hand. i figured, if you have a solution for a problem, then solve it, but if you can't, then just let it go. there's no point in dwelling on something you can't do anything about. and i did let go. the book was closed.

ironically, just when i have given up, and waiting for myself to get over it, something happened and suddenly i saw a glimmer of hope. but nah, i'm still not opening up the book that has been closed just yet. i'll review it for some time and maybe if i think it's worth reading, i'll open it and read from the first page. hopefully, this time it will be great! =)

Expect the Unexpected!

when you least expect something to happen, it happens. and when it does, it can really make you smile. =)

i remember when i applied for the sime darby scholarship earlier this year (mind you, it wasn't the only one i applied for!), i didn't really expect to get through to the interview rounds, but i did. and the email came when i least expected it. the same goes for the actual scholarship offer itself. my really close friend had already got an offer before me eventhough his interview was later and by then, i had already given up and told the world that i failed. but, in the middle of my exams, just when i was least expecting it to come, i actually got the offer! i was over the moon with happiness! =)

so, what does that have to do with my life right now? well, it just occured to me that all the happy things that happened to me happens when i least expected it. when i don't think too much of it. so, i guess it's true, when people say that you should live your life one step at a time. taking things as they come. i've also heard people say that the easiest way to lose something is by wanting it too much. so, i guess we should just relax and let life take its course, right? what do you think?

p/s: erin, i borrowed your favourite quote. hehe.

Puisi Rangga (A2DC)

kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
sepi… sepi.. dan sendiri aku benci
aku ingin bingar... aku mau di pasar
bosan aku dengan penat
dan enyah saja kau pekat
seperti berjelaga jika kusendiri

pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
ada malaikat menyulam
jaring laba laba belang di tembok keraton putih

kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya
biar terdera
atau aku harus lari ke hutan
lalu ke pantai…

just something which reminds me of my days back in KYS. Ada Apa Dengan Cinta is definitely one of my favourite indonesian movies. it's probably a lot of girls' (and maybe some guys') favourite as well. Such a classic teen flick, focusing on love and friendship - typical teenage problems. if you haven't watched it, then you really should! =) my other recommendations are Ungu Violet and Vina Bilang Cinta. Eiffel, I'm in Love is probably good as well but i've never actually watched it. but seriously, nothing beats A2DC! hehehe. =)

by the way, if you want the iTunes file of this poetry read by Cinta in the movie, just message me at msn yeah. =)

Hope

hope is something you can't get enough of.

everyday, there's something you hope for, whether you realise it or not. you hope you can get through the day with at least something interesting happening in your life. you hope you'll pass that exam you've been studying for. you hope you'll get to eat that delicious belgian chocolate ice cream. you hope you won't have to do any homework today. you hope you can go back this summer. you hope for everything you can possibly hope for. HOPE is something good, if you do it sparingly and over something which is attainable. sometimes, nothing is impossible. and you try to achieve it by all means. but sometimes, you have to learn how to let go.

but you ask, what if someone else gives you hope? maybe that person didn't mean to do it intentionally. maybe you are the one who's been having high hopes based on something a person said, but thought nothing of? i, for a fact do not know how to deal with that. if a person gives me hope, but never actually makes it come true, should i just keep on hoping and maybe one day it will? or should i realise that it never will, and just let go?

letting go of your hopes is really hard but i wish i knew how. when i say let go, i mean really letting go with all my heart, all the unrealised hopes i had. not just by merely saying it. but sometimes, i keep on thinking, what if i let go now, and somehow that hope is realised but i won't be able to have it then? then, i'd have a problem with 'what if'. and that's gonna be a lot more messy.

so, should i keep on hoping?

Win, Lose or Draw

my frens have been telling me to run for a post in SUAMS... unfortunately, i'm not a member. i would love to be one, but i'm not even a member of USU. and from what i understand, i'd have to be a member of USU (or is it VSU now?) before i can become a member of SUAMS. am i right? i might sound a bit full of myself, but people have been telling me that i could actually win if i did run for a post, and its a big loss that i didn't. well, too bad. i probably lost the chance to become a committee member. but nevermind, eventhough, i do not have a post, i'm sure i'll be a very active non-member. hehehe. and i think being an active non-member or member is definitely better than being an inactive committee member right? maybe i'll become a member next semester and try running for a post. =)

Bad Day?

its funny how a nice word from someone can make your day. it doesn't really matter what that person said, what matters is that it came straight from the heart. sometimes, you just don't realise how much what you say, or do mean to another person - be it a hug, a word of encouragement, a kiss or even just a smile. if a person has been going through a bad day, a simple gesture would be enough to make his or her spirit lighten. and when you've made someone else happy, trust me, you'll feel hapy as well. it's just a natural chain reaction. a domino effect.

when i read some of my friends' blogs these days, they're full of gloomy entries - maybe its the weather, maybe its that time of the year where everything just feels wrong. i wish i could be there when they're feeling down, but i guess sometimes, we just can't do everything.

so, here's a song by David Powter - Bad Day. this song is dedicated to all my friends. it's a really nice song to listen to - especially when you're having a bad day, and the video clip never fails to make me smile. i hope it will make them smile too. =)

here's the lyrics, in case you wanna sing along. i highly recommend it! =)

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Chorus:
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

Chorus

Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Chorus

Had a bad day
Had a bad day

www.friendster.com

friendster can be good and bad at the same time. and the fact that its so easy to get a glimpse of someone's life - just a click away - makes me do weird stuff.

the bad thing, for example, is looking at pics of someone who has been one of the main features of you life, or, if you can't do that, looking at pics of someone who has something to do with that someone who was a main feature of your life. i shouldn't have done what i did. coz eventhough i'm happy that person is happy, a small part of me wants to be in that person's life. don't get me wrong, i am happy with my life now. but sometimes, i wonder whether i'd be happier if that person was here. or i was there. haha. do i make any sense now? i don't know. maybe not.

the good thing about friendster is you get to know about what's happening in your friends life. people who really matter to you and maybe about the life of a person you're having a crush on. you get to know how the life of someone, who might be a main feature of your life, is like. all you have to do is click on the name of a mutual friend and find your way around. its really very simple. hehe. elementary. but this time i'm wondering whether i will be happy in the future. i'm sure i will be. right? at least this time i'm looking at the future, not the past. that's definitely better, dontcha think?

be it good or bad, there's always something you can do with friendster when you're bored. so, if you don't have an account, go sign up! haha. i wanted to put a pic of how the page looks like but i don't know how. so, check it out at this link. hehe. =P

www.friendster.com

Just Stuff

I'm gettin annoyed with my laptop! i seriously do not know what's the problem with my internet explorer. i can't seem to get myself connected to the internet and it's driving me crazy! i can't update my blog regularly and i most importantly, i can't go to the uni's website from the comfort of my own room! and yeah, i know the university's not that far away, but i just like doing things in my room. anyways, this has been a hectic weekend. we, UMNO committee members met the High Minister of Education and he was really nice. but the best part about it was the fact that we got to eat really, really nice food! things we wouldn't be able to afford with only our scholarship allowance. haha. and i just managed to finish my part of the economics group work. yeay! looking forward to another busy and fun week! i've got my first mid-semester paper on Wednesday - ACCT1001. wish me luck! =)

For the Love of Performing

It's finally over - my days as a busy superstar! haha.. it was tiring, but in the end it was a lot of fun!

Malam Gema Merdeka (MGM) was great! sure, there were some shortcomings and things we would like to improve but i think it was wonderful nonetheless. our band was lucky coz we had the support of a lot of groupies! haha.. thanx guys!



Here's a picture of us performing the medley of songs - Joe's at the back banging his drums away! =P






The Band!












Fazley said I sang OK - not much of a compliment but at least he didn't say i was bad! Hehe.. =P Thank you











This one's after it all ended.. Selamat Menyambut Hari Merdeka!






MFest made me realise that i am able to perform in front of a big crowd of strangers. being able to sing, dance and act made me realise how much i love performing - even if i was a bit nervous at the beginning and screwed up some of my lines and lyrics and dance steps! Maybe this is gonna be the start of my Superstar-dom! hahaha..!! =P



Hang Tuah(Faisal) and Gusti Putri(Me!) singing Bagaikan Sakti.. Or should it be Bagaikan Sakit? I couldn't reach the high notes!







Just hanging out after the sketch ended was fun as well.





The Teh Tarik Krew at The Tarik Kiosk!






Yeay! The end of a very, very busy month!! But i loved every single second of it. Anyone up for another round next year? i definitely am! =)