Strangely Familiar

sometimes things hurt you, when they shouldn't. and sometimes things which should hurt you, don't.

there are some things in life which make you smile and laugh. things which will always be able to make you happy regardless of whether you're just in one of your emotional spiral or going through one of those harsh moments in life. whenever you feel as if there is no use in hoping, some things just seem to be able to lift up your spirits. and you are able to see the silver lining every cloud has. and sometimes there are people around you who makes the difficult things so much easier to go through. people you know you can always count on no matter how busy they are. no matter how many times you complain about the same thing, they will always be there to lend you a shoulder to cry on. to give you advice when they think you're wrong, but will always be there to support you regardless of what your decision is in the end.

but, wouldn't it be sad if those things which are so familiar to you, should decide to change? or the people you've put so much trust in decide that they want to leave?what if things so familiar to you become so strange? then you realise that right now everything so strange is becoming so familiar. and you learn that a friend may be a stranger and a stranger may be a friend.

at a time when you need comforting words from a friend and expect that person to offer it to you, you only receive silence in return. just when you thought you've found someone who really understands, you turn around and see no one.

Codename : Midnight Magic

the operation was launched due to miss erin's luck in winning a competition organised by her university's union. one of the prizes she won was two ticket passes for the movie "step up" - a movie about a juvenile delinquent and a student of an arts school who were both trying to realise their dreams through dancing. after a number of calls and messages, it was decided that we would watch the movie at 11.45pm at Greater Union, George St. out of a bunch of people who were invited to come along and watch the movie, only 6 decided to actually watch it. it was a great movie and we were all in the mood to dance when we got out of the cinema! ok, maybe not all.. but most anyways!

however, we did not go to a club (not that we planned to anyway), instead, we went to an arcade which was located nearby and had a (or maybe a few...) go at the dancing machine. it was really, really fun!! especially when you succeed in following the beat of the music and you step on the right boxes. i wish i could say that i was the best dancer for the night, but the truth is Faisal emerged the champion! =P but nevermind, i will beat him next time!! hehe.

the operation ended with everyone thinking of what to have for sahur and the usual 'talk about life' we have with each other. =) in short, the operation was actually just another typical night out with the rest of the gang. hahaha.

conclusion, operation codenamed midnight magic was a success!! yeay!

Playing at War

i went to my first play since my arrival in sydney and it was at seymour theatre, which is actually just 10 minutes away from SUV. the play was called "to the green fields beyond" and it's main theme was war.

it was a nice play but i can't say that i really enjoyed it though. part of it was because of the fact that i didn't really understand what the actors were saying coz they were talking really fast in this thick australian accent. thank god i got the hang of it in the second half. the other part was because i actually enjoy musicals more than dramatic plays like this one, which has a minimum amount of music. i love colourful broadway musicals like cats and fame, and i do hope there are gonna be some performances when i'm home in malaysia for summer. owhhh.. another production of PGL - The Musical would be great too coz i missed the first two. =( anyways, there were a few quotes in the play that i kinda liked but i can't really remember, but here are the ones that i can sort of write down.

"yesterday was the past, today is the future, tomorrow is a secret."

"we are like a drop of water in the ocean but when perceived, the drop of water and the ocean are one."

well, those are the only ones i can recall but i have my doubts on whether i actually got them right. haha. owhh.. here are pictures of the people who made the night a memorable one.















hey.. did i mention the tickets were free?? i don't really understand how he got them, but thanks to sunny for inviting us! =)

A Glass of Water

there are two ways to look at a glass of water - you either see it as half full or half empty.

when you're optimistic about things, everything will tend to fall into place. because you try your best to turn dreams into a reality. you will always be enthusiastic about trying out new things. figuring out how to make things happen. finding out the solutions to a problem. being able to see the bright side of things first and working on it will eventually make something others see as impossible turn into something possible.

being pessimistic, however, doesn't help at all. you throw away the possibility of realising a dream . you question everything about something. you see the problems before the solution. and whenever you do that, you don't put all your effort into something you're doing because you don't see it as something worth working on. shattering any hope of anything ever becoming possible.

yes, i understand the need to look at possible problems that might arise when you're working on a project. but why don't you try to find solutions to them. if you can't face it, go around it. be flexible. if you think an idea is not realistic or you don't agree with it, by all means, give your comments, go ahead and critique it. but don't do that without giving new ideas or at least improving on it.

be constructive, not destructive. be progressive, not regressive.

it doesn't hurt to be optimistic. you can always cry later. yeah, you can say that being pessimistic doesn't hurt as well. but can you laugh later?

Peeking around the Corner

Oh dear, how time flies!
It was peeking around the corner,
But I didn't see it pass..
Taking slow and small steps,
I used to wish it would be faster..
Now i'm running in a race,
Will i be able to come first?

Oh dear, love is such a teaser!
It was peeking around the corner,
But i didn't find it sooner..
Hiding and seeking,
Lost in this game we play..
Now i'm bouncing on a spring,
Will i be on it forever?

Nightmares

i've been having these recurring nightmares for almost two years now. they don't come often, probably once or twice every three months or so. but they always have perfect timing - they come when i'm feeling really happy and content with my life. i get these nightmares when i least expect it, when i've sort of forgotten what happens in the dream. whenever i get these nightmares, i wake up with tears on my face and a feeling of helplessness. i wish it won't visit me in my sleep anymore. i wish they would be substituted with sweet dreams.

but i wonder whether they are something which keeps me in check with my feelings. to let me know whether i've been able to let go of my past. well, maybe they are coz i have to admit, each time i have these nightmares, the tears don't fall like they used to and i can feel myself getting stronger.

and yesterday, when i had the same nightmare again, there were no more tears. nonetheless, i still felt helpless in a way, coz i wasn't able to wake up as soon as i realised what was happening. but i'm glad coz at least i know i'm not taking one step forward and two steps back. at least i know i'm moving forward. and one day, these nightmares will disappear and i'm gonna get my sweet dreams. =)

Floriade@Canberra

I've just arrived home after a 2 days 1 night trip at canberra. there were only 20 people going on this trip, so there were only a total of 4 cars. hmm... what can i say about canberra? well, it was nice going to the war memorial and of course the parliament, although we didn't actually get to go in (not that we wanted to..) hehe.















we also went to the high commission of malaysia, which had a relatively small representation compared to US and china, but it was fun knowing that if you did something wrong, and you went there, you can't be prosecuted under australian law coz its considered malaysian soil. haha. cool huh?

and of course, we went to floriade - the flower festival. the flowers were really pretty and colourful. but most of them were tulips and i was sort of expecting more variety of flowers. but nevermind, they were nice to look at anyway. =)


















in conclusion, it was actually a not-so-interesting trip, but the company was great, so i had a wonderful time. yeay! =)